For the past few months, my Back2skool blog has really been weighing heavily on my mind, as I struggle to find a voice in the crowd. When I started blogging in 2008, every day in the classroom was a new experience and I was like a child with technology. I found it so easy to let the ideas just flow onto the keyboard, through images and video. I also found that I tended to learn more through the reflective experience of typing each blog post – through the language that gives so much structure to one’s own learning.
This year, I’ve moved away from teaching kids and begun the next part of the journey – teaching the big kids as best I can while concentrating much of my efforts in trying to hone an academic voice (one worthy of the publishing I’ll need to secure a permanent position).
Still in the process of working out who I am in the new environment, I find I’m more and more reserved in what I share, vetting the things I say and often going to great lengths to check my facts before I suggest something to a colleague or student. This isn’t the fault of the environment, per se – it just seems to be how I’ve adapted in the early stages of becoming an academic.
So the struggle is one within the mind – and it’s one that I really hope to conquer in the coming months. I have plenty of ideas that, with the right time and thought, could be worth writing down online. Ideas like teaching teachers, finding my place in a field of research and exploring new technologies are hopefully ones worth sharing.
Life is still (and perhaps always) a work in progress, but I’m determined to continue to put ideas out there that matter to other people.